...All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us…”

 

Gandalf the gray, L.O.T.R.-Fellowship of the Ring

           I am famous for pulling quotes, I know. But, this is a really good one! It made me think: “What have I decided to do with my time?” I have accomplished many things in my life thus far, but have I fulfilled my own destiny in any of these ventures? I won’t go down the path of “what does it all mean?”, but I will put my own imprimatur on the above quote. This is something that I wondered over 2 years ago. Was I doing all that I could to be a happy person? My own answer was that I was basically existing as some kind of human extremophile and just grinding life out on a daily basis.

 

            It is again time for a change. This kind of information is evident to some, more than others, but it takes some real motivation and effort on one’s part to do something out of the ordinary for yourself. A great deal of my time was spent planning an making moves in reaction to those around me. What I realized was that too much ended up being based on the mistakes of others. I’m sure the people I’m referring to are under the impression that they are making logical choices in their lives, but in retrospect it was detrimental to my own progress, and something that they will probably eventually regret.

 

           These times are now filled with decisions. Of course, I immediately speak for myself, but all of you reading could probably apply this same theory to your own lives. Are you happy where you’re at in life? Can you change it? Should you try? I have been in those same decision making shoes many a time. Usually what I determine is that happiness is something that needs to be achieved, even at high cost. When I reach the end of my days, it would be great to say that I have no regrets. That is a hefty goal to carry, but one that I think would be worth the effort.

 

           On the morrow, I hope to have taken another step into a larger world. The bad things that have happened will hopefully fade into more of a lesson than pain, and I will accept what life has become thus far. It is a difficult thing sometimes to only look forward, but necessary to become the person I want to. Right now, in the comfortable setting of my office, this seems very Zen to me. In my innocuous environment, I am able to see through the fog and know that I am going to do what I can to make the best of the time I have been given. I hope all of you are as well.

 

 

Cheers,